Concert Etiquette

What's with gettin old and not givin a damn?

Goin to Kanye West's concert would have thrilled me even 2 years ago, but I felt so indifferent walkin into the open arena holding VIP tickets last nite. God damn it! Show some enthusiasm girl, that piece of paper you show at the door aint cheap! HOWEVER I could not conjure up the excitement my companion was feelin... sigh

Things I realised that I would not have in my earlier days:

DONT -

Go on a weekday
Go straight after work
Go in semi-formal attire
Go in high heels
Carry a super-sized bag
Go on an empty stomach
Go on time
Stand near die hard fans
Go sober

Cheap Pleasures

In my crazy "tryin-to-juggle-a-career-with-family-and-at-the-same-time-tryin-to-have-a-social-life" life, I've found recently that joy comes in small packages. I've found joy in things that I'm quite embarassed to share here... but will go ahead nevertheless.

I guess lately my goal and focus in life has been to climb the corporate ladder and accumulate *lotsa* wealth, and that's left me more than frustrated and exhausted to find any meaning in other parts of my lunatic existance. It's become so pathetic that I've found myself overjoyed (and genuinely happy) by the followin:

- Gulpin down 6 Oreos in a matter of 2 minutes. Desperate and unable to find anythin solid to quench my cravin for sweet food, a colleague offered them and I was more than happy to take.
- Gettin to pee after a 3 hr marathon meetin
- Makin afew thousand in a day's punt
- Takin off my 3-inch heeled shoes after a 15-hr day
- Goin happy-hr when the boss was away
- Kissin my nephew while he was asleep
- Sleepin in on a weekday and missin the mornin meetin
- Tidyin my eyebrows after 3 weeks
- Havin banana pie and ice-cream for dessert
- Havin Jaffa cakes for Breakfast, Lunch, and Tea (reminded me of my roadtrip to Scotland)
- Buyin my 14th (or 15th??) pair of shoes (need to beat by 05 collection!)

Sometimes I wonder, would a real huge bank balance make me this happy?!

Last Destination

Uncle you will be missed deeply

I walked into the hospital room and there he lay surrounded by family, still and lifeless. Tears came flowin down my cheeks and I wish the pain my cousin and her family was feelin would just go away. Losin a husband is not easy, and losin a dad is worse!

A sad, very sad day. Today for the first time in my life I encountered a dead person, and nothin could have prepared me for it. This was so close to home. It's a very brutal, harsh truth - the person lyin in front of you is not goin to wake up ever. That person is not goin to be a part of your life anymore.

What is worse, your loved ones are sad, upset, angry, and exhausted beyond belief. No matter what you say or do, you know their lives have changed forever and for sometime they will not be resuming their normal selves.

Boy oh boy! This is what it ends at. Death. Nothin on that fateful day can keep you from goin. I think it's time to reexamine life. Keep death in mind for that will make you live.

I've never been a superstitous person. But I have a feelin that someone somewhere is really upset with me, or this is some predestined dark period in my life that exists to teach me a thing or two bout love, life and living. One thing after another is givin my system a shock and shakin my world and makin me question "Are my priorities right"?

One hella F***ing long day!